Hey, it's Valentines Day, the day where we show our significant other how much we appreciate them. We shower them with affection and gifts, while they suck up the attention.
Hopefully, that's how your day went, but what about those of us who are without someone special?
Some of us are fortunate to have children with us on Valentine's Day, who will move our focus towards giving them a joyful day.
And yet, no matter what we do, that empty void still cuts at us.
That happened to me today, as I work towards maintaining a streak of several feel-good days in a row.
It's Valentines Day, and I neglected God
The emptiness hit me as I neglected God in my life, instead choosing to deal with my feelings on my own.
I adjure you, O daughters of Jerusalem, by the gazelles or the wild does: do not stir up or awaken love until is ready! – Song of Solomon 3:5
I still have a long way to go to being the kind of man that I know I am. Thankfully, I realized this tonight, and I jumped into prayer.
My prayers were not focused on myself, but on other close friends who I know must be feeling what I am tonight.
I hope my prayers made a difference; they aren't as impactful as the prayers of other people I know, but I'm working on them.
Thankfully, going into prayer changed my demeanor causing more positive thoughts, and a willingness to get focused. The fatigue of the day is lifting, and I feel pretty comfortable that a good night's sleep is in front of me.
And, after being single for the past four years, I will have had the nicest Valentine's Day with no regrets when I go to bed. That's a huge improvement.
I'm getting excited that it's Valentines Day
Not only that, I'm excited to see what the next year brings as I am pretty sure, I will not be single next Valentine's Day. God surely has someone special in the plans for me!
In fact, I'd be willing to bet that being single on this Valentine's Day is part of God's plan for me. He knows I have work to do, that I am knocking off what is in my personal inventory. Soon, I think I will be worthy of an incredible woman equally yolked to me.
Yep, you just witnessed a little bit of self-confidence on my part, and that's a huge step forward! I wrote that without even thinking about it. Thank you, God!
I can't wait for what is about to happen next!
Happy Valentines Day!
The next morning: Soon after writing this, I found myself cornered with several challenges. The night didn't turn out as peaceful as I had hoped. After re-reading my post, I realize that I did not turn to God in the way that I should. My writing doesn't show the kind of person I need to be. Where is humbleness? I am making an awful lot of assumptions that I am deserving, when clearly I am not.
My first thought is to remove this post, but doing so, would not be humbling myself before God. I do want to change, and I am willing to do whatever it takes.